Que Sera Sera.....

That's a favorite phrase of one of my closest girlfriend of long standing, Farah. She likes uttering those words at every opportunity she gets (which somehow seems like every now and then actually).

My hubby(I finally can say that word) and me, we made an agreement for this particular entry. I will get to do a no holds barred as long as I keep our (he means his actually) fotos out of this, fotos that don't depict him clearly I mean. Those of you who know how jealously he guards his privacy will know I won in this "debate".....as usual ;-)

Last Wednesday, I married the man in my life. The one whom I fell in love with when I was 17 or 18. The same one that ignored me completely, who made belief I did not exist for two whole years (and more) until I turned 20. Yes, the same one that kept dating older women cause he deemed me too young at that time to know the meaning of love. The same one that out of the blue, without ever asking me for a single date and without ever being WITH me on a single date, uttered "Jenmarie, I love you. I have always been in love with you. I have always loved you from that day we met", sending me reeling into such a state of shock, I was totally speechless for a good 20 minutes.

This was the man that told Farah "You girls...... she, I mean is much too young to know what love is. I prefer someone in her early twenties or slightly older than me actually" shattering my world into millions of broken pieces when I heard that from my best friend and he at the wise age of 24, knew what love was about(?), sigh. For almost a whole year I tried getting his attention, coz well, I knew I loved him from day one. Finally I gave up and went back to the States when my late dad completed his tour of duty. Always had him on my mind and when he picked me up at the airport ** (I came back to visit Farah and the others) a year later, uttering those words at the airport itself, my world seemed complete. Of course, I knew even before the shock wore out, I would make him pay for all the times I cried. Err, well that I won't go into here. Not enough blogger space :-D

And now 7 years later, we are finally husband and wife (I love you then and always will Sha). There was never others in my life except you. The only thing I cried about and felt sad over such a beautiful day was the fact both my parents and both his parents did not live to see this day.

Till death do us part hun. Je t'aime, Je t'adore, Tu es ma joie de vivre, Mon amour pour toi est éternel. Merci.










ps: To friends, I'll be off blogger for the next couple of weeks. Sha will also be off his blog which he has left collecting cobwebs anyway, for the same duration of course. We'll be on our honeymoon :-D Wish us all the best you all. Merci

**This is a simplified version. Those of you that know, well, remember Rantau Abang? ;)

Creeps creeping on the net.

I am kinda pissed at the moment. So I thought I'd blog this. Any of you girls ever come across the creeps on the net? I'm sure many of you must have at one time or another.

I had one creep today who happened to visit my account at myspace. This is what he had to say. Quote "Heyya doll :) I had a look see here and liked very much what I see. Give me a buzz doll. We can cook something up for sure babe :) - Mike" What you see, you won't get duhh.

And another one "Hello, I am a sailor from Greece. My job takes me to NZ regularly. Wanna have some fun? Gimme a reply - Nara" I already have fun but it's with my guy. I certainly don't need morons like you to show me how to have a good time dick.

And another one "Hi baby. I'm Chris. New in NZ? You wanna know where's cool to hang out and meet some cool dude gal? Lemme know. I think you're hot. Meet me online gal and see if we're around the same place. You turn me on gal, you sure do ;)" Yeah right, like I'm some stupid tart. Get a life, grow some intelligence!

Yet another one, this time from Facebook. This one who calls himself Gerry. "Hey woman, you look ravishing. You're hot woman. You look good in red. Let's web cam sweets, anytime you name it. I'm in NZ too. I'll show you a good time hottie" if I look ravishing (and I am not saying I am), that's for myself or my man and not you a**hole.

WHAT on earth makes men THINK all women are bimbos? That we are so desperately hard up for their loving? Ughhhh! That the accounts at myspace or facebook we have are for men to hit us on? The thing about these morons, they just do not read at all! Had they taken the time to read my profile, they will know that I am in a relationship and that in facebook's entry, I stated it as I'm engaged! What is the problem with some of these men? Do you guys just talk through your loins?

Sheesh! My reply to all those was a simple "Block user". I don't have time replying to stupid and rude remarks.

However in conclusion, I wanna place a link here to another creep that I came to "know" while blogging a while back. He used to call himself Hobo and had a blog at uselesstraveller.blogspot.com but it seems to have been taken down coz of this article. That moron really deserved it. Read that lady's story on that liar that used to give me the creeps while I was group blogging last time around. What is that proverb? Oh yeah, she who laughs last, laughs best ;)

Cya Hobo ......and all creeps too.

Sisters Of Gahenna Mukveh

This is a post meant for my special friends, the sisters of the coven called Gahenna Mukveh. The word is Gahenna and not Gehenna. These are two different things totally. I have disabled the comment on this post as requested by them. What I just wish to say is that these are very special women indeed. I wish you knew them like I do but that is not my call. They decide who their friends are.

Mahre,
Ne hrev tu sar nos du ard staht cy nhein mahre. Te vhydd helain cil gaensai. Sa vhydd te ard kia rhek sar aimsi tu iydd te alea mie hal iawynn cy hudr wevr. Tu avek hvreah kia sar jukh dih. Seyhr tu ate cy rheyn ard kia uhd deyn. Ehr nein nos te gik sak . Nehr ank ghrnan ukvh deyn na rha hein cy heyr harg'n gik ane han nos mie keaiydd nos sifvg. Ulea ard tul eta avek hvren cy kreah mie la tu ard zin nos flahvrahn. Na rha hein deyr,  cy hvreah ard ane kia fvrie. Uvrhan te ane ydd dargh. Kia  ank nate wydd oku ard iyll uvek kia. Heyr cy bhien gimch ank vhydd diema nos mie versi jukh. Nhrav heyr tu hvreah cy sar mie ard ehne kia avek hun, nos khrangl iawynn jun cy nea mahre.

So, Kayla, Shayna, Caitlynn, Cee, Nadine, Eryn, Misha and Kimberly** too, on this 5th anniversary, I just wish to say, Thank you mahre and to Alisha, Welcome ;) I have learned so much from all of you that I now can see things from a very much different perspective.


Bless you ghurls
**Added : Tamara, Dee, Alisha & Ella :-)

Ghaven mi mahre

Down memory lane.

"Je t'aime... moi non plus"

Here's part of the lyrics in French,
"tu va et tu viens
entre mes reins
tu vas et tu viens
entre mes reins
et je
te rejoins- je t'aime je t'aime
moi non plus
oh, mon amour...
comme la vague irrésolu"

Literally translated into English, that means "You go and you come between my hips(kidneys), you go and you come between my hips(kidneys) and I rejoin you- I like you I
like you me no more oh, my love..." and with that the female singer's soft moaning of ecstasy as they make love. It's obviously referring to the physical actions of a couple making love. It's a very erotic song then and still is now, where I am concerned. That song first came out in 1969. I was not even around then. The first time I heard this song was when I was a 9 year old living in Lyon, France.

It's funny how songs can transport you from one place to another in a split second! I caught that song from utube by chance and it brought back lovely memories of my dad(and my mom, God Bless their souls and keep them safe, Amen). I remember coming down the stairs, many, many years ago, as that song was playing. My dad was making breakfast for us. Mom was washing up the utensils.

I asked my dad a really innocent question as most 9 year olds would(I think). I heard the soft female "cries" and the sensuous male whisperings, so I asked my dad "Why is that man & woman singing that way papa?" Such a simple question(well to me it was simple) and my dad looked at my mom quickly and turned back and answered me. I remember everything. It went this way,

Dad: They are just talking to each other in a loving way Jen
Me: Why?
Dad: What do you mean princess?
Me: I mean I never hear you talk with mommy that way and you do love mommy don't you??
Dad: Of course I do princess, of course. Well, sometimes other people don't necessarily express the love that way princess.
Me: Why not? Why don't you express it to mommy like them? I think they must love each other very much.
Dad: Them? Well may be but that's just a song princess. You can't really tell.
Me: But I can! I can! They love each other. Papa, Mommy can I hear you both talk that way? It makes me feel better.
Dad (getting fidgety): Well princess, people who love each other don't really talk that way. I mean they do....and...And, well they don't princess.
Mom (steps in to rescue dad): Honey, I think it's time (as she gave my dad a wink).

Fathers, they always make you feel special with just a smile or calling you 'princess' and mothers, they are always there when you(or fathers!) need them. I realize fully what that wink meant only a couple of years later. That was the day I knew what kept the birds and the bees busy.

Enjoy that song. It's really romantic not too mention erotic and Sha agrees too. Sha? Him I will get into it another day ;)

I added this one too. This one reminded of my dad absolutely! Gosh, I miss him. I miss both of them too. Thank God, I have my mate when I feel like I need a shoulder to cry on. There are times you just can't help it. You know, like you wish you could have done certain things in a different way. Anyway, God bless your soul papa. You too mom. I love both of you, always!

Peace.

Drowning In Your Love

It's 10.00am here. We'll be going to the Stade Velodrome in Marseilles later on to catch the All Blacks vs Italy game. Anyway, I "sneaked" in this post since I have some time to kill while waiting for them to get ready. We'll be out for food shortly.

I still remember this song by the BackStreet Boys sometime in 2001 when I was in my late teen. How they rocked my world......lol, I guess the BSB were the idols of most teen girls at that time. It feels so good being back here in France. Hey, this is because of Paris, the city of Love. You can't blame me can you? It does that to you somehow ;)

I'm not uploading this to youtube for now. The timing's just nice for this upload and checking of my email. Perhaps after the championships. By the way, in case you haven't heard about the opening game results, France was beaten by Argentina 17-12, sigh. Well, I hope the AB's don't stumble!

Later

ps: The Stade Velodrome for the NZ game later and
the crestfallen look on Sebastien Chabal's face on the French defeat.

Fat???

Are you? Fat I mean. Why are we women (not all) so obsessed with that thing called 'fat'? Here's my conversation with my mate a while back. It went something like this ;

Him : Oh God!!!
Me : What's wrong hun?
Him : Look at this vid. Seriously, why would women THINK men want them all scrawny thin and bone like? This is damn awful, take a look Jen.
I went over to the utube video he was watching and well, yeah I have to agree with them, my beau and that video obviously.
Me : I think most of them need some form of psychiatric care. I don't think the average woman want that kind of figure anyway. Men too I would think.
Him : Definitely not! I like you the way you are, all fleshy and umm...well, you. You know what I mean.
Me : Me fleshy?? Really? Gosh, you mean I'm fat?? (Suddenly, an alarm bell rang in my head)
Him : (in a very defensive manner) Noooo! definitely not! That's not what I mean BUT hell, I rather have you with even a little bit more flesh than those skinny ones! Obviously! I wanna feel your body when I hug you NOT some hard bones hun. Don't ever think of dieting. I can live with you being a few kilos overweight. (The emphasis there on a few....)
Me : Ummm, well i hope I never have to. Diet I mean.

I think we need to accept and love ourselves first before others will. Wonder if that makes sense. Also, the media in many ways are to be blamed for the constant barrage of advertisements that keep touting and flaunting off superficial beauty. Teens or young insecure adults can and easily be swayed by these ads. Anyway, the video clip we were watching when this subject was raised is included here. Watch it. Perhaps some food for thought for all of us.

Peace.

Update : In Paris!!! :-D Go All Blacks Go!!!

*****Tu es l'amour de ma vie*****

I've always felt something was amiss
Till you came, lifting me off this gloomy abyss
In my darkest nights, you shine bright
Like a beacon's guiding light,

You are my day and my night
The source of my will and my might
Without you luv, it will never be right
For then I'll be, a woman so deep in plight,

Say that I'm yours, your life's dearest lover
The princess that's in need, of her knight in full glorious armor
Say that I yours, that I'm your only charmer
For if I am not, then I'm as good as a goner,

Of parsely, sage, rosemary and thyme
I'll love and treasure you till the end of time
Coz you're the best thing to have come my way
And I'll always pray, you're in my life to stay!

I hate it when he leaves NZ for work reasons to God knows where BUT I am always so glad to have him home! Be picking him up shortly :-D

Tu me manques. Loin des yeux, près du coeur. Il n'est pas d'amour qui résiste à l'absence. Sha, je t'aime. Toujours!

Woohoo !!!

Intel Core 2 Duo L7500 1.6GHz
OS Windows Vista Ultimate

RAM 3GB DDR2 667 MHz (1x1GB Lenovo, 1x2GB Crucial)
Display 12.1" Superview SXGA+ (1400x1050) TFT
Graphics Intel GMA X3100 graphics, Intel 965 Express Chipset
Audio Integrated speakers
Hard Drive 100GB (7200 rpm) ..........blah ...........blah blah. I am not going to do a geeky or a technical review.Hell, I don't even understand what all that jargon is even though it was explained to me and I don't even know if I got the above right in the first place! :(

What I do know is that this is my new, yes! My new notebook :-D There's so many features that I am still grappling with! It was such a tremendously pleasant surprise when a Fedex guy came over and asked me to sign for a package. When I unpacked it, to my shock it was this Thinkpad tablet notebook, a birthday gift from my beau. Muachx! I never did say or asked for anything as a birthday gift from him, ever. What is it about Thinkpads? I love them, always have. My current notebook is a T41 and it's still as good as the day my mom gave me!

He's currently back in the States till this Thursday and will be back home only on Saturday. I sure have lotsa questions to ask him on this thingy but hun, I luuuvvvvvvvv yooooooouuuu!

Hmm, perhaps on second thoughts, this is just another gimmick for him to make sure I keep my hands off his own notebook? Whatever, I love him just the same!

Peace.

Of Jacuzzi, Bedrooms and the AllBlacks

Yay! We got the jacuzzi in finally :-) It's not too big nor too small either and I got the bedroom redone too. Finally! The jacuzzi was done by hired professionals of course but I did the bedroom myself at my own time. Well, actually we did it together. The previous color was too dark(maroon!). It seems different here actually, this new one in the picture. It's more like jungle green when you see it. The carpet was also changed. It's now beige, more or less when previously it was dark brown! Gosh, some males just have poor color coordination ;)

I never understood the earlier color scheme. I guess engineers build things, sort of. They're not artsy fartsy types or maybe my other half just has a penchant for dark colors. Hmm, nope I don't think so. Well, anyway once I did asked him and his reply was that "It does not get dirty fast". I went like "huhh??" I mean, dirt is dirt, seen or otherwise right? What is it they say? Men are from Mars, yes...yes, that's the real reason me thinks.

I love this new color scheme! I saw it somewhere in a home decor mag and I thought "Yes! This is exactly how I am gonna redo our bedroom......... with some minor changes of course" and well, it's done! I can sleep better now :-)

That having said, I just had to put this non relevant video in, hehehee. I just uploaded a tribute video of the NZ AllBlacks on youtube. So I am gonna put it here too. We have already the tickets to the September Rugby 2007 World Cup in France and I can't wait to see France again too! He had relinquished his vacation plans in 07 for this event too. When I first came to NZ in 03, the very first major game he brought me to was the final of the Tri Nations Cup which the AllBlacks won of course! I hope they win this World Cup too for they have never won the Coupe Du Monde before. I have grown to love rugby more than gridiron! Hmm, may be I am getting more and more Kiwi with each passing day?

Oh well, I'm happy here. So who cares ehh?

Peace, One world.

ps: There's another interesting article here. This time Sha found it. He was at the other corner of the study room on his grrrr.......grrrr.... untouchable laptop when suddenly out of the blue he went....."hahahahaahaaa!!! ahahahaaa!!!!" and continued into uncontrolled fits of continuous laughter. I almost called the paramedics. Anyway, it seems he was reading another blog. Hmmmph!! not mine...grRRR. Well I don't quite get it the way he did but he did explain that blogger's entry to me, facial expressions and all. Seems a salesperson made a sales pitch and when he or she was refused, he or she sent a very mean sms to that prospective customer. What was funny he said was, HOW she emboldened and enlarged that company's name AND why on God's green earth would the normal average home person want to buy a water vending machine??? Stupid salespeople, sheesh!

.........And more Hunks :-D

Freedom of Speech ???

Well, I wanted to blog on love. Then it occured to me my friends might fall asleep :-( So, I decided perhaps I'll leave that for another day. Okiee guys, you're safe for now and Sha, you can come out from under the bed honey ;-)

Okiee, okiee seriously now. Yesterday, I caught that video above somewhere on youtube of course. I don't quite understand the language. Although I did spend some time living in Singapore, one of Malaysia's neighbors, I did not live there long enough to learn the language of the people there (the two countries have lots of similarities and yet very different too). Besides, they have more than one official language. However, I really found this guy in the video to be well, he's good I say. I then viewed more of such related videos and read more of the comments posted. It seems this video has caused quite a controversy in Malaysia. I think if I am not mistaken, this video insults the ethnic malay race and the singer is ethnic chinese. If that is the case indeed, then I think this singer, this guy in the video needs to practice a little consideration towards his fellow Malay Malaysians.

Hmm, not much different is it? Afro American, whites, hispanic issues abound everywhere in this world. I've always wondered why it's so difficult to get along. I'm part Vietnamese and part French and I think it's safe enough to say that I know what racism is. This world certainly does not need it!

I guess that's why I made my decision to live in New Zealand with my beau. I have lived in France when I was a child, the States as a teen, Singapore for a year or so while I was studying at the United World College and then finally back in the States. I have to say that I love New Zealand the best and France a close second.

As they say it here, Kia Ora.

Peace, One World.

ps: The english translation of that song can be found here. I also found another non-related but interesting Malaysian articles by a Malaysian blogger here. Thanks Pinky.

The REAL Superman

It should read as "The Real SupermEn" actually. That's a picture of Team Hoyt. Dick and Rick Hoyt are a father-and-son team from Massachusetts who together compete just about continuously in marathon races. And if they’re not in a marathon they are in a triathlon — that daunting, almost superhuman, combination of 26.2 miles of running, 112 miles of bicycling, and 2.4 miles of swimming. Together they have climbed mountains, and once trekked 3,735 miles across America.

At Rick’s birth in 1962 the umbilical cord coiled around his neck and cut off oxygen to his brain. Dick and his wife, Judy, were told that there would be no hope for their child’s development.

Well, dad never knew the meaning of surrender or giving up. Some kinda son and some kinda dad!! I watched a tribute video for them and was so moved by that. It's included here too, I hope you like it.


Peace, One World.

Je t'aime - Love at First Bite.

My birthday is just around the corner. I'll be 25 soon. A year older but a year wiser? I hope so. Sha (my beau) made a video tribute for me which I've added here. Well, I'm not one to really indulge in things material. I'm a simple person I guess. I like the free things life has to offer. The really precious things in life are free, no really! We just need to open our eyes and I mean really really open!

Anyway, in 3 months time he'll officially be mine ;-) More on that later on perhaps. What is it about love that makes your life so full, so meaningful and gives you that zest in life. Even with all that differences of opinions, big spats or little spats and arguments it still seems worthwhile!

I will always remember the day our paths crossed. I was eating at the cafetaria and saw this bunch of guys on their big steeds rode in and parked their bikes near the window next to me. I was 18 then and he was 23. That's how long we've been together I guess. He was my first love and still is. I pray for eternity. Although there are times I wish God gave me certain powers to make a man change his umm, well annoying habits, like dumping their clothes anywhere they want and that's just one annoying habit mind you! Grrrr!

Well, anyway my girlfriends who were there with me, started teasing this bunch of guys. Somehow, he attracted my fancy. They came over and he asked me if the apple I was munching was any sweet. I held out for him to take a bite, a complete stranger mind you and somehow one thing led to another I guess. Truthfully, aids did not enter my mind then :/ ...... I mean, sharing that apple not some other stuff mind you but well, we're cool :) Honestly? I did not really anticipate that he would have the nerve to really take a bite out of the apple I was eating!!

For that video hun, thank you. I love you, always. Sha, je'taime, je t'adore.

I'll ramble on another day. Gtg for now.


Peace. One world.


My birthday gift - Aicha

Temporarily on hold.

This blog is on hold for now. Most of us are at youtube ;)

Meanwhile, until I decide what I'm gonna blog, I'll leave here some of my videos and my friends too.

Unforgiven - Mine


All Blacks - My beau's favourite Rugby team.



Hmmm, somehow I think I know what I'm going to be blogging ;)

ps: The rest of you 9N folks reading this, take your time. I think I'll do this alone :)

Later